the feeling of being melancholic...

I took some m&m's chocolate in the fridge awhile ago. Out of the blue, I didnt notice that some of it fell on the the ground and broke into pieces. How nice! It made me think and realized that even the sweetiest thing in life could break too...
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Well, It says so. I have been a pathetic lover ever since (a single declarative sentence, no details anymore, much guilt and a single sentence of aggravation) . A hopeless romantic, and a they-so-called 'torpe'. And I admit it (rather than telling something else).

I should have gained so much self-confidence for the sake of it.And yet,it still the same where I have been to.

Funny to tell this story of mine that i used to tell wacky stories and some sort of happy moments but now i am telling this mushy talks feeling the burst inside. Sigh. I cant help myself.

I was once a coward and a stupid just a long time ago. Yeah I was, and until now im still succumbed with the same feeling, the same hints and the same vulture. I may have a vague understanding it all, my problem. And I have no designs nor conceptual structures behind of those things.

I was once told by my friend... “ bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan?”
I answered promptly “dahil ganito ako”
You are making your life messy!
Yes! It is.

I’ll try not to spoil this feeling. But the irony is the way i dont want to, is also the way it goes to.